CMI 3-13: The Shining Self
October 11, 2009
Consciousness Mentoring Institute
Course Three – Session Thirteen
Channeled by Serge J. Grandbois and Transcribed by Theresa Smart
Recorded in Toronto, Canada on October 11, 2009
Roll Call: Serge (Joseph), Mark (Philip), Alan, Alyssa, Barbara, Chuck, Ellen, John, Jonathan, Lisa, Nora, Theresa
MARK: October 11th, 2009. CMI 3-13.
KRIS: Now we trust that you are all comfortable.
MARK: Yes, thank you.
KRIS: And we thank you for your consideration.
MARK: Thank you.
KRIS: And we will be very thankful for whomever considers offering the summary.
NORA: I’ve got one ready.
KRIS: Indeed.
NORA: At some point, speaking to us directly as the soul, in the last session Kris referred to our search for a deeper spiritual connection and experience of happiness as being through our continuous physical expressions. Kris clarified the self’s experience of happiness by explaining that when it’s sought only through external methods, it’s a transient experience requiring constant modifications in order to discover a sustainable and effective recipe.
The self as it looks outwardly, and sometimes frustratingly so, for joyful sensory feedback, retains sufficient memory of itself as eternal, full of knowledge and bliss, and has the potential to move towards deeper experience of itself and a deepening sense of satisfaction and joy, thus liberating itself from those frustrations and disappointments.
This notion, then, of looking for happiness outside of ourselves can be parallel to some of the sincere ideas and practical information that are readily available in that these can also be satisfied for a while but remain only part of the recipe.
Kris stated that some historical people having acquired this state of consciousness have demonstrated this potent knowledge through their words and actions, which resonated with others who recognized and responded to their authenticity within, to the Atman, the soul.
The process of delving deeper into the structure and acceptance of our aspects allows not only for different aspects to reveal themselves but for the previous ones to more easily become part of our new state. Even though these parts of ourselves may not be able to fully appreciate the ensuing changes in our consciousness and with our personality, and may offer subsequent resistance. Even though they may wish to expound, some aspects may intend to experience their idea of eternalness at the more familiar physical level. And so an understanding of the nature of ourselves as consciousness and so more than our aspects, is crucial to our developing realization of ourselves as jiva tattva – that we are the soul.
As we increase our awareness of ourselves in this fashion, and using the wide range of tools, techniques and perspectives we’ve learned so far, we’ll continue to gain sufficient knowledge and experience to assist others in recognizing their own potential, depending on their current and developing quest to explore their own nature.
Arising from Theresa’s comments, Kris detailed that, as the self, we are Beings of consciousness and that we truly and fundamentally exist at this layer of consciousness, and that part of our experience is then to reflect and express ourselves through the context and magnificence of the physical journey. End.
KRIS: Indeed. And we thank you for that. Would someone care to add to this?
THERESA: You mentioned a couple of Sanskrit terms – jiva tattva and one other one, I just can’t find it in my notes here – vastu tattva.
CHUCK: You mentioned that the true nature of the resistance that the aspects experience wasn’t due to any external movement but rather the internal movement of a change in the state of consciousness.
KRIS: Indeed.
ELLEN: I liked the comment you made where you said that being aware of aspects is significant and can bring about many changes, but working with aspects brings home the realization that your own energies have caught up with the contents of your consciousness.
KRIS: Indeed. We thank you all for your observations and points and for your lovely summaries. Now, very important to also keep in mind, that the world is a reflection of your consciousness, does it not?
ELLEN: Yes, absolutely.
KRIS: How would your knowledge of aspects so far begin to influence and thus reflect in YOUR experience?
ELLEN: It gives you that recognition of how you’ve been perceiving, how you’ve been behaving, what you are aware of. It gives you those aha moments. You see more clearly. You see into the pool what’s underneath, what’s underneath the reflection.
KRIS: That is a very good observation. And these aha’s, these moments of insightfulness and clarity, though they do give you the aha’s, these aha’s are often associated with your bodily identification, especially in the areas concerning your beliefs. And these aha’s, the realizations associated with them, and in fact everything associated with them, these types of aha’s also pertain to other aspects which are themselves also identifying with the bodily conception of life, as are those of the average individual.
This does not necessarily imply that because they are associated with the bodily identification that they are somehow or other misleading or a waste of your time. On the contrary, they do give you much insight into the functioning of the mind, the intelligence or intellect, your emotional states and even your state of perception as reflected through consciousness – through the daily events and circumstances of life.
So that is a wonderful feedback mechanism.
ELLEN: I hear a “but” coming.
KRIS: Not quite. [sound of a train whistle is heard on the line] That was a choo-choo.
ELLEN: Oh God, maybe I should mute. [laughing]
KRIS: Now if you consider that your own bodily identification, what we have referred to as the false ego, though the appellation seems to feel somewhat discomfiting to some of you, but it may also be referred to as the misidentified ego. Does that also make sense to you?
CHUCK: Yes. That makes sense.
THERESA: Yes.
KRIS: Indeed. Thus, consider that the sunny day may be overcast with clouds. Thus the overcasting of clouds can exert some kind of influence into the outcome of the day, would it not? It may occasion you to modify your plans for going out or doing certain things, and so on and so forth. And consciousness, as you are experiencing it, at times may appear to be overcast. But you may be aware that the clouds will not stay forever. That there is a very strong likelihood that any given time or very soon, the clouds may simply dissipate and you would be left with the full and blazing sun, would you not? Considering that it be daylight – otherwise you might find yourself with moonlight.
JONATHAN: Correct.
KRIS: Thus, understanding the patterns and the movements and even the presence of the formation of clouds will definitely give you an assistance in knowing that, first and foremost, the sun is always shining even though the sky may be overcast with clouds hiding the sun. You may see some tinges of sunlight peeking through, breaking through some of the cloud formations until eventually the clouds simply move on and disappear, leaving the full sun for your admiration. The clouds, to whatever degree, may represent in this poor analogy, may represent various aspects. Sometimes some influence stronger behavior than others, thus creating bigger clouds. Some may even be storm clouds. Until eventually these move on and you are left with full sunshine. Thus having an understanding of some of these weather patterns can give you insightfulness and the knowledge that the sun is always there. It may simply be covered over.
And in a similar manner, working with and having an understanding of your aspects gives you a solid understanding of your inner patterns, what with various beliefs that you entertain and the nature of your aspects in relation to yourself – you, the eternal you. And under that umbrella, if you like, you may further experience that once there is a good understanding of patterns and aspects with the nature of beliefs as you have been cultivating these things, that when the clouds dissipate and you are in the presence of the sun, your agitation may subside if not completely disappear. You may begin to experience a peacefulness of mind that some others might sacrifice a body part for, because people are very often agitated in their mind. Quite the opposite from another period of time where things were simpler, but people had a peacefulness in their mind. They operated from that peacefulness which is significantly different than the way many individuals in this lifetime function – function from a place of distress, dissatisfaction, and so on and so forth. So that is very, very significant.
And you may even recognize within yourselves how you were some time back, recognizing that there is a strong likelihood that your mind is operating differently. Your intelligence, your intellect is also operating differently. Does that make any sense to you?
GROUP: Yes.
KRIS: You see, these divisions in the psyche that you can refer to as various aspects, sometimes some of them having rather pithy complaints or perceptions, but still require your attention and observation. These seem to be much more prevalent since the so-called “Me Generation”. Do you remember that generation?
THERESA: Was that the generation of the seventies or eighties, I think?
KRIS: Indeed. Where suddenly it was popular to basically say, “Screw the world. It is about ME. I am important. And anyone who does not think so, can simply take a hike.” Do you remember those good old days? It was a philosophy that was very popularly passed around and shared. And this ended up creating even more divisions because of a few very simple principles, one of which is that you are all social creatures.
But then, stepping into this game is the idea of more involved consumerism where the marketing and advertising agencies for all of these consumer products encourage the kind of individualism that disregards and even pushes aside any notion of social interactions except if it is to the benefit of the one individual. And apart from that it is not necessarily encouraged – these social interactions.
And there is a very good reason, because these agencies are trying to sell a dream – a quickly fading one at that. Trying to sell the dream of individualism. But it is an individualism that is based upon the most temporary concepts. With no knowledge of consciousness, this type of individualism is based upon the misguided ego wherein it is set up with the idea that the misguided ego – which is often equated with the self – is the enjoyer of all.
Thus selling that dream through various means and products and services encourages a kind of collective schism where the individual is even encouraged to fight his or her own impulses for socializing and depend completely upon advertised merits of instant enjoyment and gratification, as if anything less is somehow or other to be discouraged and does not promote self-awareness, self-empowerment.
And beneath all of these ideas is the concept that the social structure can be manipulated in such a way that individuals will individually come to believe that their personal instant satisfaction and gratification is the ultimate goal of existence. And anything else, especially anything that may contradict this view, must be pushed away, eliminated in one form or another because it may go counter to one’s pleasure, to one’s gratification. Because everything else suggests that the social unit and the culture is an effective means of collective emancipation and strength, which implies that one – an individual, one person – exists and has his or her being within the context of the collective. Which implies that the needs of the collective are as important if not more important than the needs of the one individual which, in itself, also implies that the one individual becomes satisfied and gratified by working in and with the collective, and not against it for one’s own instant pleasuring and gratification.
And this distorted view does create schisms on the large scale not only in the collective and in the social and familial unit but even within the individual, because then the individual may recognize that he or she has different and perhaps varied and many needs, some of which cannot be met and satisfied instantaneously. And since the culture is promoting instant satisfaction and gratification as a means of awareness, therefore not being able to meet one’s needs and pleasures and satisfactions immediately is a source of distress. It agitates the mind.
Therefore vast systems are set up to try and meet those needs, so that those who propagate these ideas and philosophies – what you may also call those “powers that be” in society – can prove themselves to be the providers of these pleasures and needs and satisfactions. And in order to do this, and here you may get a short lesson in history, but in order to do this, artificial divisions need to be created and one of them is the creation of the federal reserve which no longer functions as it used to. It functions solely on the merit of credit. And the way your economies have been progressing, you are creating huge debts in order to pay other debts which are used to pay other debts, all with artificial financial resources – literally, money printed on paper which simply means debt on paper. It is not real value but an artificial one that can be inflated and deflated at the will of those who control those means, and that is not the government.
Thus, these kinds of artificial divisions are not based upon any kind of long-term planifications for the well-being of the population as a whole but rather on the well-being of the voting individual, who knows not for the most part, how he or she is manipulated.
However, by what you are learning, by the awakenings that you are going through, you are discovering that not only are you more than the sum of all of your aspects, but that you have access to a high order of aspects per se that can bring you a deep peace of mind from which you can see the world and reality from a very different perspective; that your perceptions are changing the effects of your consciousness, because your consciousness is different. And as a result your life experiences – the realities that YOU ARE CREATING IN YOUR LIFE – are noticeably different.
You may, some of you, may have noticed that there are times when you may be in the midst of a crowd or several people, and somehow or other it may indeed feel that though a part of you is there with these individuals, you have an awareness that somehow or other, you are also somewhere else, in a manner of speaking; that your consciousness is no longer as immersed in the everyday affairs of the world as it used to be. Does that make sense to you?
ELLEN: Yes, that’s quite true.
LISA: Yes.
KRIS: Sometimes individuals may appear slightly out of sorts with this recognition or even slightly confused, because it is a new experience, because you used to believe whole-heartedly that you were your physical selves. You might sometimes have intellectualized that you might be something different but as you observe from your own experiences, the reality is quite different. And as you begin to grow and understand the nature of your aspects, both those related to the misguided or physical ego per se, as well as that which is higher within you, you are gradually experiencing a paradigm shifting within your experience, even within the self; recognizing that the self that you are is actually very different than the self that you thought you were. Does that make sense to you?
ELLEN: Yes, yes, totally.
KRIS: And in terms of your growth, in terms of the evolving stages of your consciousness, we believe it would be quite accurate to say that the world will never quite be the same as it used to be. Now, having listened to our humble though sometimes long-winded voice, how do some of you see this in relation to your aspects?
THERESA: Well, I’ll take a stab at that. If the world is a reflection of our consciousness and our consciousness is made up of aspects, then the world itself has various aspects, various different beliefs, which is more or less stating the obvious. But then when you consider our public systems, our governmental systems, our financial systems, and then when you say that as we expand our consciousness, our aspects become more integrated and we see the world quite differently because we’re seeing things from a more collective viewpoint, a higher viewpoint. Then therefore as we expand our consciousness, our world, which is a reflection of our consciousness, the different aspects within our world will become integrated and we’ll become more concerned for the collective and for the higher good of everyone.
KRIS: Indeed, very nicely put forward. Very nicely worded and thought through, even on such short notice.
THERESA: Thank you.
KRIS: And this is an important point. Many New Age philosophies now simply teach that even though in some parts of the world, or even in your own back yard, if there is conflict of any kind but you do not want to acknowledge your participation even in terms of consciousness, you just say, “Not in my reality.” And somehow or other, that is supposed to work, even though all around the world these different things are going on, also a reflection of your consciousness in one way or another, individually and collectively. That is why some time back, not that long ago, we spoke about solipsism, as well as impersonal-ism; which simply means that in the long run that nothing matters, not even self.
So we are encouraging that you continue developing your observations and as your own mind becomes more peacefully centered; in fact as your own peace and happiness is internally generated, that your mind is situated in moods of peace and happiness, it begins to exert its influence. Your perceptions, therefore, exert influence through consciousness. And as your own potency becomes more and more clarified – clear – it begins to exert its influence in your experience of your reality, your every-day moments, your every-day experiences, and as more and more people come in contact with you, then that influence begins to spread, therefore many clouds in you and others, many clouds that were covering the sunshine, slowly dissipate to reveal the shining self.
And that is why we brought these discussions that are, right now, parallel with the Search For Self course, into aspects because it is an important understanding to have. For when the mind is not peaceful, when there is agitation, dissatisfaction, complaining, distress and so on in the mind, what do you think happens to consciousness?
CHUCK: It reflects that state of the mind.
KRIS: Indeed. And you can see in the world there are many areas, if you want, pockets or tracts where these things are reflected, correct?
CHUCK: Yes.
KRIS: And there are also other areas or tracts where certain moods which may contain contentment, inwardly generated happiness and joy, these are demonstrated in consciousness as well. But at the same time, we suggest that even though there may be a moment of happiness, do not take the moment to be the full experience. Moments connected together are meant to move you towards a recognition of that greater state that generates these moods. But simply flirting from one moment to another in the hopes that one of these little moments will perhaps bring a longer period of inner peace or satisfaction or joy, may very well represent the kind of, how do we say, the kind of entrapment that is also being used by marketing and advertising agencies.
The kind of joy, of happiness that we are speaking about is not so easily influenced by the nature of time and the experiences of space. It is rather steadfast and ever- growing. And in spite of all ideas and philosophies that try to impress upon anyone and everyone that a brief blip of some kind of satisfaction in a sometimes day-long struggle, is not in itself satisfaction or peace of mind. Do you follow?
CHUCK: Very much so.
KRIS: There are some who would say that one simply has to be positive and keep a good stiff upper lip, and surely somehow or other you may get two moments, two blips of joy and happiness. And we equate this with a little analogy wherein a man trips over a cliff and purely by chance happens to fall by a branch sticking out of the side of a cliff that he grabs onto and prevents himself from falling below on some rocks. Only to realize that right above him is a bees’ nest wherein he may get stung. And perhaps there are even all sorts of mosquitoes and insects that bite him, creating a truly distressing situation. And as he howls and prays in his distress for relief, he notices that at the bottom of the beehive, which is right above him, a little drop of honey is about to fall, so he sticks out his tongue, and receives that one drop of honey. And in that momentary pleasure, the man may say, “Ah, all of this suffering is not so bad.” [laughter] And perhaps a few moments later, after innumerable other mosquito bites and some bee stings, another drop falls. He sticks out his tongue and catches it and says, “Ah, it is not so bad.”
So we are saying this, not with the intent of discouraging anyone but with the intent of encouraging you to see that there is a great unending well of peace of mind that comes from this kind of work, that comes from the sorts of realizations that you are making. Because when the mind is agitated in all sorts of areas – with work, with the economy, with family life, and with taxes and with debts, and with mortgages and car payments, and the price of gas, with war here, conflicts there – these are like insect bites. Every once in a while there may be a small moment during the day where the individual perhaps momentarily forgets all of these concerns, like the man catching a drop of honey from the beehive above his head and goes, “Ah, it is not so bad.”
So by cultivating the kind of consciousness that you’re already establishing, you do not have to fool yourselves with the, “It’s not so bad”; understanding that the true source of happiness is within, especially in communication with your own higher aspects.
And being situated on that platform, no one needs to experience what some of you have referred to as your ego-death, or the death of the false ego, or the death of the misaligned ego, whatever you want to call it. None of you ever need to think for a moment that that is the case. Just as none of you need to think that when you wake up in the morning you must hold funeral rights for the death of your dream self. None of you need to hold funerary rights for your young self, your child self, your youthful self, your teenager self. These are no longer there, but these selves did not die. Is that not correct?
CHUCK: That’s correct.
KRIS: So put these thoughts aside as purely speculation because none of you need to undergo any kind of death of ego of one kind or another, the false ego or misaligned ego or whatever. These are awakenings. Nothing needs to die; not in you, not outside of you, nor anywhere. Nor does ANYONE need to die. There is an awakening however. That is a very profound change or shifting in paradigm from your old, ordinary, mundane consciousness into the realizations that the world truly is a different place for you now, because the world, as far as you are experiencing it and individually and collectively, is a product of consciousness. And without consciousness there is no world. There is nothing. There is not even nothing because nothing is something. Does that make sense to you?
CHUCK: It does.
KRIS: Now, having listened to this long dissertation, who would like to take a stab at putting this in context with aspects?
CHUCK: Well I know for me, Kris, as this process has been unfolding and as I’ve been awakening, it definitely doesn’t feel like a death. It feels like an awakening. And the individuals in my world, the reflection of me, are more and more a match to what my state of consciousness has been.
KRIS: Indeed.
CHUCK: Yeah.
KRIS: Could you consider this then, an enhancement of your comprehension, even from Colorado and the conversations that you had there?
CHUCK: Yes. Yes, there’s definitely an experiential part of this that goes beyond the information that was shared, that I’m having now on a day-to-day basis.
KRIS: Indeed. If there is any thing at all that appears, and we cannot emphasize enough the word “appears“, to die it is the idea that this misaligned ego may fear that its own control and mastery may no longer be exercised. But in truth, has it ever had any control or mastery?
CHUCK: You know, and I really saw it very, very clearly, I’ve experienced it very, very clearly as really a question of mis-identity where now the concept that, yeah, I’ve been thinking of myself as my name, as my body, as the history of events that happened to me. And there’s this actually apparent growing sense of me as something other than that. And it’s quite cool.
KRIS: Indeed. Now in Sanskrit the word ‘controller’ is ishwala. And the supreme controller, All-That-Is is called Param Ishwala. And the false ego at times likes to think it is the Param Ishwala, the supreme controller of its reality and all experiences derived thereof. Yet, it is operating under that principle through illusion – maya – because there are certain things it cannot control, death being one of them. It cannot control not eating. It cannot control not going to the bathroom, and so on and so forth.
Only to point out that for all intents and purposes, no amount of conscious creation can also work in that area. Conscious creation needs therefore to be put into a certain context; which gives it a better perspective. You can control the results of the many experiences that you can do and choose to do consciously. You cannot even control and prevent the growth of your body. You cannot make yourself shorter, nor taller, unless you use the famous elevator shoes, or stilts. Does that make sense to you?
CHUCK: Yes.
KRIS: By understanding the nature of your aspects, consciousness, conscious creation and the very nature of the results of your experiences, you definitely can enjoy much more peace of mind. Conscious creation was initially intended to also generate a kind of peace of mind by allowing the individual to have an understanding and a certain measure of, or exercise of control over his or her reality. But it has not had any, how do we say, more or less satisfactory controls or enough experiential results. And when people jump on the bandwagon and make attempts to transform their experience, say from one of poverty to one of excessive affluence in an extraordinarily short amount of time, if not instantly, simply by thinking their way into it, and they come up with a brick wall, they again become distressed. Is that not so?
CHUCK: Yes, it is.
KRIS: So the true freedom lies in the science of the soul. And here we are sharing it with you through an understanding of the nature of your aspects. Does anyone have any inquiry on this so far? Or would you all prefer to work out your summaries so that you can make inquiries for next time? So that you have some study material.
JOHN: Well, I don’t want to get in the way of people having study material, Kris. But I do have a question.
KRIS: Indeed.
JOHN: I really appreciate what you’re saying about how we cannot use conscious creation to not eat, to not die, to not go to the bathroom. And then you said, okay but we CAN use conscious creation for… And I’m taking notes here. And it’s something about, we can use it to control the contents of our consciousness. I may not have got that right. Could you speak for just a moment about what we CAN do with conscious creation?
KRIS: Indeed. Up to a certain point you can create a state of mind, a mood, such that it reflects into the attraction of experiences that reflect or match the mood, up to a point. That is still based upon the idea that you are the physical body. So it is based upon the temporary platform of existence. However you all, or as is said in Texas, y’all, have been learning that you are not the physical body, therefore how can you use conscious creation? How can you use your consciousness to change the paradigm of your experience? By understanding that you are an eternal, immortal, joyful, blissful, knowledgeable Being.
In that way, your consciousness becomes the instrument through which you create joy, happiness, peacefulness, first and foremost within yourselves from the perspective or the point of view of the center of your Being, which is non-physical, which is your eternal nature. And from that, it is and has to be reflected in your consciousness, creating your environment. That is a very, very different perspective. It may APPEAR to be just like everyone else, trying to put this into effect. But the difference is that you are operating from the eternal point of view.
Therefore what you are likely to generate in terms of moods, which influence your consciousness, which reflects in the realities you live, that all these things are quite likely to be very different; the very nature, and the very intention, likely to be different. You are not, for instance, likely to consider that your happiness can only come through winning the lottery. Your happiness is understood to be paramount and not depend upon another person bringing you happiness. Or on other things – new car, new washing machine. These are nice but they are not considered by you to be what makes you happy. You know that YOU ARE happiness – that is your natural eternal state. You are joyful. You are content. You have an inner state of peace of mind that is not dependent on outward or external conditions or situations or events to bring you happiness or joy or knowledge. Does that make sense to you?
JOHN: Yes, that’s very good.
KRIS: Indeed. That is the true intent of conscious creation, which should be consciousness creation.
JOHN: Exactly, exactly what I was thinking. So, the point of conscious creation is not to change the world. It’s to change my own understanding of myself and the world will follow.
KRIS: Indeed.
JOHN: Great. Thank you.
KRIS: The world has no choice because it is a reflection of your individual/collective consciousness. We have been saying this for many, many years, but now it is in a slightly different context because YOU are in a different context. So it has a different effect.
JOHN: Oh yeah. I totally hear that. I’m putting out these Kris quotes, as you may know. And I’m pulling them out from, like 2003. And you were saying this exact same thing in 2003 but I didn’t get it then, or at least I got it in a different way.
KRIS: Indeed. You got it from the perspective of the limited self, even though you thought that self is unlimited. That was from the point of view of your misguided or false ego. Now you know the difference between the two, up to a point. And cultivating that – deepening that experience, can only bring a richer harvest.
It is very much like the gardener, putting his seeds – vegetables and fruits – and throwing them in sandy, rocky soil, as well as throwing them in rich, dark loom. And cultivating that soil, weeding it, watering it, making certain that it has all of the sunlight and the fresh air and the warmth possible. The seeds thrown in the rocky, sandy soil may bring some sprouts from these seeds but they will eventually wither away, whilst those seeds that are being tended, and nurtured in the rich loom will bring a bountiful harvest come harvesting time. Does that make sense to you?
JOHN: It sure does.
KRIS: Now then, we are suggesting that you all do your summaries and as you read the summaries that you are putting together, select one, two or more specific points that you can provide a commentary on. You all know what a commentary is?
CHUCK: Yes.
KRIS: If not, you can Google it. The idea is that we would like to hear not only your summary, but then the one that provides the summary can give commentary on some parts of the summary, as well as other individuals may provide their own commentary on the summary they wrote. Does that make sense to you?
CHUCK: It does Kris. And I wonder, to be helpful to the transcriber as well as myself, could you spell that Sanskrit name for the controller aspect of us?
KRIS: Ishwara. Capital I, S, H, W A, R A. So you, then, because you are part and parcel of All-That-Is, also have this tendency. It becomes misguided when it is identified with the bodily conception only. All-That-Is is Param Ishwara – the Supreme Controller. Does that answer your question?
CHUCK: Yes. Thank you very much.
KRIS: Indeed then, we will return Joseph to your lovely ishwara selves and do prepare your summaries and commentary on certain key points that you have come across.
CHUCK: Thanks Kris.
KRIS: Indeed.
THERESA: Thank you.
MARK: 1:37.
[end of session]